Mourning…

Someone helping me out of mourning will have to catch a couple of thousand fireflies and put them in a lantern to light up my life…
But then again God made love songs, chocolate, warm embraces, herbs, kind sentiments, and sex. 
Thing is this time, especially this time.. Something undoubtedly important has been lost.. Something I’ve been trying to sustain alive for sometime… 
When your heart keeps telling ya, that true joy is a long shot from now on…
You always knew anyone anytime could be lost once and for all, and you don’t know why exactly, this time.. What made you so damn.. Scared! 
So damn afraid, for future losses, for anyone new you say hello to, for anyone you take into your arms…
They leave but they don’t really leave.. They’re everywhere… We’re tripping over them over and over again…
Little reminders that they were here and that one day will be again…
And you start making new memories and habits around them and it doesn’t mean you miss them any less, it just means you manage with time to love them more, so much more…