Scattering and Vicious are the words we shed when in pain, when in love, cruel at times to others whom we equally respect even love… We’d like to think of our selves as selfless, kind, and harmless at least to whom we intend no harm. But we actually hurt and torture much more people than we’d like to admit while simply following our hearts… How can something so gentle so true, like following ones own heart and instincts cause so much hate and despair, cause so much tears and can’t be rid of scars? We never mean to but we do, we never even intend to but we end up red handed with the same hideous crime time after time… We are caught one too many times hurting people that we hold nothing but respect towards or in many other times we may even hold indifference but still hurting the innocent weighs on ones conscience like no other act can… See in these times you don’t just feel bad, you feel scared that your path will intersect with another who might do that to you one day… Hurt the knockers out of you unintentionally cause to you there won’t be a thing unintentional about it! It won’t matter on purpose or not to you right then and there hurt is hurt and the case rests right there with the verdict in the horizon known by heart and guilty conscience… You see every story, every situation has more than one “factor” involved all mean well, all think they are doing themselves and their loved ones justice but thing is good intentions intersect and crash and leave everyone involved hurt just a little and sometimes.. sometimes hurt a whole damn lot! Apologies don’t do much but most times they’re all you have to extend your hand with, so I apologize to all whom I’ve hurt and all I will hurt… All you really need to know is that I never meant to…



ألا يكفي

أي قدر ظالم هذا الذي يأبى أن يمنحني قلباً استحقه، أستحقك و تدرك بأنني استحقك فلماذا يبخل القدر بمنحي إياك…  تعبت من أجل الحصول عليك فلماذا لا أتمكن منك؟  أشعر أحياناً بأنك لا تليق بي لكنني لا أطمح بأن تليق بي…  أريدك كما أنت… كما أنت… كما أنت… ألا يكفي أن أريدك كما أنت؟    

Simply Okay…

I hope it’s nice where you are, cause I love you and it’s beauty is in its simplicity and it’s okay. It’s okay to simply love you and to give in to your love. I loved you yesterday, I’ll love you Tomorrow and I love you today. Truth is there are rare moments in life when you need to simply give in… Give in to Love, Give in to Sleep after a Long Day, Give in to Hope, Give in to Depression Even! Give in and Let it envelop you, stop fighting and stop struggling and just allow it to envelop you… Loving you has consumed me but now I finally get it fighting it, along its lines, and desperately through it  that was what was consuming me, not love. I love you too much and I was this close to hate you cause I didn’t know what else to do to make you feel my love… But now I don’t hate you, you see now I just love you and I’m satisfied to say I will always love and I will always be there for you through thick and thin. I believe in you unconditionally and I have ultimate faith in you and love I’m tempted to say once more even proud to exclaim, I love you and that’s simply okay.