Letting Go.

Between what’s right for us, what’s right for them, what’s right in the minds and hearts of the people who love us, and simply what needs to be done! We not only lose ourselves completely but lose them as well…
We may let our imaginations fly about how we’d like it to be, how it’s supposed to be, especially if the person corresponding to you refuses to give you any proper closure or even a fucking explanation!
So we dream, we fantasize…
But here is the thing about matters of the heart, you’re probably, most certainly, absolutely correct about the way you feel and about how they feel too!
If you feel that you love him then you do, even though sometimes you’re pretty sure you really don’t…
If you feel that he loves you, most probably he does…
If you feel that you’re good for her/him then you are.
If you have a deep controlling feeling that his/her kiss would be different and would wash away the pain, then it probably would…
You’re just probably right.
And in light of that when what’s good for them, is not what’s good for you, and when what’s right is really no good for either of you!
Love at it’s best is an oxymoron!
So what to do?
Here comes a choice that you’re forced towards with maturity that doesn’t necessarily come with age…
You can simply move on and tell yourself that it’s just not meant to be, convince yourself with “The Doing Yourself Right” Speech. Put them behind you quietly…
Without too much of a hassle and listening tentatively to everyone who loves you…
But still you’d get a sting right above your heart every time you see them and all your efforts to continuously convince them in attempt to convince yourself that you’re through…
Fails to convince them or you…
Now that’s why Letting Go is more… Well Peaceful.
Once in love, always in love…
Everyone we’ve ever loved, takes a special place in our hearts…
In our souls…
No matter how much they hurt us or don’t, what they do or don’t, if they love us or if they don’t…
Each and every human we’ve ever loved holds a place in our hearts and souls, whether they rightly earned that place or whether they deserve it or not, is simply insignificant…
Everything we feel, we so rightly need and have to feel!
We miss them just cause we do, we miss them when we have them, when we don’t, and we just miss them…
Nothing to be ashamed of not when we have them and certainly not when we don’t!
We feel what we feel when we feel it and whoever convinces you that it’s not okay somehow to feel a feeling you’re feeling, slap them with a chair in the face!
When you Let Go, you just somehow leave it all to God’s already written, way above in the skies, fate…
You Let Go of the expectations, the agony of it all, the what ifs, and what the hells…
You Let Go and allow what will come to come and what may prevail or not to simply prevail or not…
If something fabulous comes your way, you feel astonishingly glad it did and if absolutely nothing good comes what may, then that’s perfectly fine too…
That’s Letting Go.
It’s not simply forgetting or forgiving or starting something new even!
It’s just being okay with whatever whenever…
And that in itself is as close as a miracle as it gets…
A miracle that you can make for you own self, all on your own…
And when you’re simply okay, you start seeing things well differently…
You start taking all your mother’s gibberish blabber about you getting love all wrong, seriously…
Being comfortable with someone, knowing that they’ll take care of you, that they love you in spite of your self, that that all and so much more, is Again a Miracle Yet from God Above…
You start trotting slowly down the road of getting to be okay…
You’re still clueless, and completely lost…
But you’re okay with yourself being so.

So maybe what we’re supposed to aim to be is as simple as being okay?

Can it really be that simple?!

But who said it is?

Cause it truly isn’t.

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